Is it a sin to be funny?

I have received word that people are not laughing with me, but laughing at me.

I normally would not address such a small, yes, key word, small issue like this. But it appears that I have paid the ultimate price for it.

Do not think that I do not know when people are laughing at me. I know it. Really. Even if they pretend that they are not, I know it when they are pretending.

It is not that I dunno. It is not that I like it. It is just that i dun mind.

However, analysts have shown that the core reason why I paid that ultimate price is because there are people laughing at me.

People laughing at me has never caused me any inconvenience in the past. I am a person that likes to make people laugh. It doesn't matter whether they are laughing with me, laughing at my jokes, or laughing at me.

They can laugh at me, as far as I am concerned, I am happy as long as I make people laugh.

However, it seems that this value of selflessness has cost me the ultimate price.

The whole world can laugh at me, I dun care u know. It is only her. It is only the fact that she minds, that I mind. Her, and everyone similar to her.

I am not an attention seeker. I am also not stupid. I am just being myself. Is it wrong to like to entertain people? Is it wrong to like to entertain people at my own expense? Seems like she thinks it is wrong. At least, she thinks it is no good. She and everyone similar to her.

I am not trying to create a miracle. I just want to clear my name.

For those reading and STILL think that I am an attention seeker just because u think that my "gestures" and "non verbal language" and "body language" show that I am one, let me tell u this straight, I am not. If u cannot even read WORDS, u can FORGET about trying to read anything more abstract, including all the non verbal types of language. I am just trying to make everyone laugh.

Perhaps, u can call this karma, or retribution.

Xiaolongnu